Newspapers

Newspapers have got to be the most ridiculous daily publication.

What, you don't believe me? Then get hold of any major newspapers. For that matter, get hold of ANY newspapers.

What do you see?

News? Plane crashes? Accidents? Murders?

Oh sure, they're there all right, miniscule as ever.

Check out the headlines. What? Dato' Duku alleging Tan Sri Ciku of stealing rambutans?

In every newspaper, pages are filled with news fights among politicians and political parties.

Really, are they even NEWS? Would the lay person, like me, even be interested in who's defaming who?

I'm so sick with ESPECIALLY the local newspapers. Is there no end to political "debates" (more like childish fights)? You can do without reading the papers for a week, and when you do, the SAME issue will still be there. You wouldn't have missed a single thing.

I'm not saying that reading about murders and rapes are all good. But at LEAST they concern the society at large as compared to who's fighting to win for the next election. Because it doesn't matter who wins. Whoever who win will STILL be the Government. Have you even heard of any form of Government being good? Have you heard of any politician who WANTS to be a politician to help the people? Of course that's what they ALL say, but really, is it not more for the fame and popularity, not to mention the perks?

If you genuinely want to help the people, you wouldn't have chosen to be a politician, because even an ignorant like me knows that there is no way you can do anything to change the present form of governance by joining them. Just a handful will not be enough to overturn this country's sick state of affair. No. It will take a revolution to change.

Right. I'm sidetracking. Again.

Back to the newspapers.

Which is WHY I absolutely hate it when people (namely: mom) ask me to read the papers. WTF, I don't care who's bashing up who in the Parliament!

"But you're in the legal profession! Like it or not, you NEED to know what's happening to be at par with your peers!"

I say, BLAA! I don't care. Fullstop.

Besides, I don't need the papers to know about stupid events like a certain politician being suspended. We are humans. Things like this travel faster than I am able to finish a packet of nasi lemak.

Newspaper: daily gossips that involve politicians instead of celebrities.

Monday Blues

I just wanna be at home and not do anything.

Dear BF,

I miss you. I know it's ridiculous since it's been only 4 days since we last spent time together.

But still, I miss you.

It's funny to miss someone this much despite being in contact one way or another hourly.

Love makes a fool out of any persons. Love made me a fool for you.

In the past, more often than not I was fooled into thinking that I was in love, only to realize that it was a mere crush. Nothing more than an infatuation, or maybe a very strong liking towards a person. But this liking fades every time problems arise.

But you. It's real. No matter what had happened and what is going to happen, what I feel for you only grows stronger. Nevermind if a "happening" is good or bad. Towards the end, I will only feel an overwhelming love for you.

Maybe this is why people say love is blind. I don't believe love is blind. Love is not blind. Which is why I love you. I love you because I can SEE that you genuinely care for me. I love you because I can SEE that you are someone whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. I love you because I can SEE and FEEL that you love me too.

Despite all the obstacles thrown at us, we have somehow made it through till today. I know that the future will not be smooth-sailing, but come what may, as long as we love each other and have faith in each other, we will eventually reach the end. Together. Hand in hand.

I love you. Always have. Always will.

Love,

Your GF

Quiz on Getting to Know Myself

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. (Hmm... I can be a counselor...)


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (The former is true, but why does it make me an attractive person? -.-)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person. (DAMN CHUN!)

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (Need to ask the BF :P)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (This is more suitable to be my parents' views.)

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. (Guess I've made my choice eh?)

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working. (Wow... Is is THAT obvious? Potential employers are going to throw my application out the window if they see this.)

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (Sadly, this is true. Need to totally change this.)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (I ALWAYS use my heart, which is my main problem. Blaa!)

From http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Good Evening

Here I am. Waiting to go back home from work. Waiting for dad to come. With nothing to do.

Since I wrote a post when I came to work, I shall end my working day today with another post.

Goodbye. Can't wait to go home. To be lazy. Can't wait. Argh!!!

Random Rants

Good morning.

Wait. Not good morning. Just morning will do.

Random rants (and when I mean random, I mean TOTALLY random).

I dislike waking up early to come to work. It's alright to wake up early without having to come to work.

I want my own car. I'm sick of not being able to be mobile. I don't like not having the freedom to move around.

I want more money. I've got so many things I want to buy but simply can't because I get this really little pay.

I wish the BF is staying near me. Or working near me. Better still if both. I don't like the idea of getting to only spend time with him once a week. I'm so freakin' jealous over people who can travel to work with their partners and have lunch together every day.

I want a more dynamic life. My life is too routine even by my standard.

I hate having to grow up! EVERYTHING sucks when you see the world in an old-ish perspective.

Work.Money.Routine.NoLife.SUCKS.

Okbye.

People

I've always known that changes are inevitable. Well, what do you expect from growing up in a family that is totally devout to Buddhism?

Despite that, it can still scare me when I notice changes around me. More so when these changes are related to people.

It's sometimes bewildering how people change. I see friends from high school changing into totally different persons.

The goodie-two-shoes changing into a rebel.

The rebel changing to a goodie-two-shoes.

The not-so-pretty changing to looking like models.

The non-academically-performing changing to a Masters holder.

It's creepy.

Admittedly, most of their lives have nothing to do with me. Good for them as long as they're happy with their lives.

But it really saddens me to see some of them straying the wrong way.

What happened to the sweet innocent girl I once knew? The girl whom everybody likes. With a sweet smile and a nice personality. A girl whom you simply cannot bring yourself to dislike. What happened?

It's a pity.

I don't understand. What's so good about being the way you are? For fame? For popularity? To see how many guys you can score?

At the end of the day, is that really how you want people to remember you? As the girl who slept with the most number of boys?

Fame and popularity can only last you this long, but the memory you leave behind will last you a lifetime, and maybe longer.

Money

I need more money.

Okay-lah, I don't REALLY need more money. I just want more money.

Why?

Because there are sssooo many things I WANT to buy!!!

I want a desktop!

I want a new mobile phone!

I want more shoes!

I want more bags!

I want more apparels!

I want I want I want!

Sigh...

But the sad thing is, I only get like about RM500 a month. RM100 will be spent on my lunches at work alone, leaving me with only RM400.

RM400 = RM100 a week.

HOW THE HELL CAN I GET ANYTHING FOR THAT AMOUNT OF MONEY?!

On food alone, I'll already be spending about RM50 for only one outing.

Double sigh...

I can't wait for my chambering period to be over. THEN I will be earning some REAL salary.

Until then, I'll try very very hard to cut down on spending on things which I don't really want to enable me to get those I really do want.

Note that I always use the word "want" and not need.

Which makes me feel bad actually. With all these recession talks going on, I should be saving like a miser.

But here I am with so many things I want to have.

I guess this is the only reason keeping me back from splurging.

That, plus I now know how difficult it is to EARN a living.

Working like a cow every day just for that amount of money... It's all sweat, blood and tears.

Another problem: I need a car.

My CLK (Cute Little Kenari) is in KL with bro. Now my family has only ONE car, the Vios. The car practically belongs to mom on weekdays, so I don't freakin' have a car to use now! Weekdays, mom. Weekends, parents. They won't be able to go anywhere without the car. So guess who's the last on the priority list?

I really need a car. Mom keeps on saying that bro will be back by June, and so will the car. But the thing is, with bro back, he'll need a car too!

So by hook or by crook, I will still need to get a new car.

Dad's quite alright with getting one, only mom goes on and on about wasting money on a new car.

ANYWAY!

It doesn't matter who's going to get the new car. I wouldn't mind driving my CLK, really. But be it whosoever who is going to get the new car, chances are I will have to deal with the monthly instalments.

Tell me, where the hell am I going to have excess money to spend?!

Woe is me.

Right now, I really wish that money can grow on trees. If that is possible, I'll use my Ahwu's poo, my TanTan's poo, hell even my own poo, to fertilize it.

钱不够用！！！ (Okay I don't know whether it's correct or not, but save to say, MONEY NO ENOUGH!)

Marriage

Wow. A friend from high school got married last month. I was just informed.

Wow.

She's my age, i.e. 23. Getting married at the age of 23... Well, it's not uncommon. In fact, it's the norm back during my parents' time.

What's the average age people get married nowadays? 28? I don't know. I've seen people marrying at 23, and also people marrying at 35.

As for me, I can't see myself getting married at this age. No. Not yet. Although there IS a part of me who actually wants to get married and settle down (and also so that I can spend most of my time with the BF :P), another part of me feels like we're not ready for such a commitment yet. Things are just not stable enough. I'm not talking about the relationship. We barely have our own careers, we I have no savings whatsoever, etc. etc. etc.

So... HOW TO GET MARRIED LA!

Marriage is a very expensive experience. Really. The money you fork out for the wedding ceremony itself. The dinner and all the relatives whom you are never close to to begin with (some whom you've never even met before zzzz). The honeymoon. EVERYTHING.

I know I sound a little bit too desperate when I said a part of me wants to get married. But hey, I'm a WOMAN! We all go through, at one point or another, this stage of wanting to have a family of our own.

But maybe not until I'm at least 26 =/